I Wish I Was a SAHM

Or a mom or had the intent of being a stay at home wife.  Im not though which is why I had to give up.  Husband and I talked about my stress levels for a while.  Made my own laundry detergent, deodorant, household cleaners, vacuum powder...and so on.  I was doing this on top of school work and my internship. Holy crap.

I broke down and bought some Pine Sol mostly because I found that most green cleaners arent green at all! While I loved using baking soda, lets be honest.  It really is hard to rinse the fridge or the floors.  My time I used to make detergent is now spent studying and I have a little more me time.  Oh how fun life is again!  Yep we bought some detergent for the first time in almost a year.

It is nice to be able to relax when I get home.  I get to spend time with husband, play with my fur babies, and  just...you know...be me.  Now when I came onto the whole idea of having a child, I thought about buying my own diapers and the whole nine yards.  You know what?  I think I will just do a diapering service.  Besides it was never about the cost but about reusing.  When it comes time for daycare, I could always check and see if they take All In Ones

No more walking everywhere.  I need to invest in a car mostly because all the good jobs are quite a ways away.  It is going to be 101 outside Friday and its a two mile walk to my interning clinic.  Perfect example right there...oh hell naw.

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Facebook It really IS depressing!

I didnt want to believe it when I stumbled upon an article stating that social networks like Facebook are depressing.  Well, I vowed to take the day off.  I have logged on to play my games and usually went and did something else (like look up raw food recipes that husband will enjoy.)  I kind of read a picture or two but once I caught myself, I would immediately leave.  So how has my day been?  Fucking fantastic.  I mean...holy cow.  Now I realize that the articles were right.

According to some research by some people that I dont remember because I originally thought it was bullshit, most Facebook/social network users post their success.  When we see how successful they are, we start beating ourselves up for stuff.  Most people post happy things.  We see how happy they are and wonder why were not happy.  That makes us even more depressed.  For the people that post depressing things...well you know...its depressing all by itself.  I realized this was very true.  I have wanted a baby for a while and most of my Facebook news feed is plastered with babies and how happy people are.  It is also plastered with weight loss stories and here I am, hating myself for my weight and eating problems.

Now the interesting part is, I decided to use my free time to use Stumble Upon to stumble....babies.  I didnt feel bad then.  I used to feel horrible stumbling on the "babies" section but today I felt just fantastic.  Cute baby here, cute baby there....

Then I played the Sims.  Im on a challenge using mods.  The family can only have children with family members because...you know...its the best bloodline.

Today is a fantastic day.  Enough said!

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